Two Questions

1. What do I want?
2. What do I really want?

I spend a lot of time asking questions—not because I know the answers, but because part of my role as teacher and life-coach is to invite people into the possibilities of their own lives. These possibilities dance before us. Sometimes quite clear, sometimes shrouded by fog, and sometimes fully obscured. Yet, we all long for something and this longing is an important resource in creating and sustaining a full and authentic life.

Even in the midst of abundance and seeming ease, there is often a disturbance—sometimes just barely discernable and other times almost overwhelming. We all face the inevitable changes of growing up and growing old. Our friends and partner change. People come and go without warning—and even when we are forewarned, still the parting still surprises and shocks. Amidst these changes, we must ask again: ‘What shall I do?’ ‘Where shall I go?’ ‘Which path shall I choose?’ Sometimes the answers are quite clear but other times it’s hard to know which path to take. Or, if the direction is clear, how to we find the energy and courage needed to follow?

In these cases when things are confusing and we really don’t know, I find these two questions of great use. They are not magic potions to straighten out all the tangles of the moment, but they can allow us to settle into where we are and connect to some deeper intention that can both guide us and provide the courage to take the next step.

First question: What do I want? This is a question that we are often encouraged to ignore. We might feel that everything in our life is set and we have no options. Or we’ve been taught that we must be ‘realistic’ and that ‘dreaming’ is a waste of time. It is true that there are many things in our lives that are unchangeable. We can’t undo anything that has already happened. What we have done, what others have done cannot be undone. We can’t be anyone other than who we are. But ‘what has happened’ and ‘who we are’ is actually much more malleable than it first appears. Past, present and future all arise in this moment and are all shape-shifting constantly. The feeling-tone and the story that feels overwhelming at one moment can change in a heartbeat—can intensify, can vanish, can become something altogether new.

So the first question, What do I want?, is an invitation to stop trying to solve problems or to assign proportionate blame or even tell new stories. What do I want? focuses our attention inward. You may have clear answers for this question or you may have never given yourself permission to ask. Either way, it is a useful question because we all want something.

Now the Buddha taught that wanting is the source of our suffering. But the solution to this is not to pretend that we don’t want anything, but rather to clarify the wanting itself. Because the Buddha also taught that suffering is an unavoidable and essential part of life. Suffering, the discomfort and even the agony of life, are, paradoxically, the entry points into a larger life of freedom and connection.

So ask yourself: What do I want? Allow yourself to be selfish and want what you want. Don’t judge yourself or censor yourself. What do I want?

Then ask the second question: What do I really want? Another way of putting it: If I got what I wanted, what would that give me? If I had a comfortable cottage on the coast of Maine, what would that give me? I might answer ‘I’d be able to sit and look out the window and see the ocean.’ Then ask again, What would that give me? Keep asking this question until you get the same answer over and over. This is what you truly want.

We often imagine what we want is a particular set of circumstances. I want my body to be like this or my finances to be like that or my relationships to appear in this configuration—then I will be happy. But when we look deeper, we can begin to discern that our true longing is for something deeper. The surface configuration of our lives, while important, turns out to have not nearly as much to do with our happiness as we might imagine. Money, fame, even relationships cannot bring us what we truly want.

Next time you come to a decision point or are feeling disconnected or lost, try asking these questions and see where they lead. You may be surprised.

Hatred and Delusive Certainty

I ended my post yesterday with this inspiring quote from Martin Luther King, Jr:

‘Hating someone will destroy you, not the people you are hating. If you‘re in a place of hating someone, you need to let go. Choose love over hate.’

I’ve also heard King quoted as saying to a group about to engage in civil disobedience: ‘If we hate the people who hate us, they have won.’ King’s concern with our hearts, with our inner landscape, was a fully aligned with Gandhi’s understanding of nonviolence as not just a political expediency, but as a way of being. Gandhi was adamant that the path of nonviolence is only effective if the participants have done the necessary inner work.

Gandhi himself continually returned to his own spiritual community for rest and renewal between his many travels and conversations and actions. Daily meditation and regular fasting were part of his everyday life. Gandhi also called off several large scale campaigns of civil disobedience when violent incidents made it clear that the partisans of his cause were not yet able to live up to the demands of nonviolent action, that they had not found yet found a way through the tangle of their own inner hatreds and violence.

That’s a high bar for engagement.

Yesterday, I was caught by King’s words: ‘If you’re in a place of hating someone, you need to let go. Choose love over hate.’ This is inspiring advice and it sounds quite simple, but how do we do it?

I don’t think many people consciously choose hate over love, but we are always beset by the seduction of righteous certainty—the mirror side of hatred. The human mind loves the feeling of certainty. The mind was apparently designed to solve problems and move on. Uncertainty requires the ongoing energy of wondering and not knowing. And while we may generally be in favor of the idea of wondering, in practice, not knowing can be very taxing. Part of the brain simply wants to clear space in our consciousness for the next problem. Being certain, even if we are wrong, is often accompanied with a sense of relief and ease.

The brain cannot distinguish between its view of reality and reality itself. Stephen Covey once said ‘We see the world not as it is, but as we are, or as we were conditioned to see it.’ We live in a world that we unconsciously participate in creating. We live with strong psychic pressure to clarify things into black and white so we can move on to the next problem. Once we know that we are the good guys and they are the bad guys, we settle into certainty.

Consequently, hate and its near relatives of blame, resentment and righteousness often feel quite good. I mean they don’t feel good, but they are solid positions that allow us to create a sense of a stable self. And on some level, the brain only wants to create a stable sense of itself and the world—it often cares more about resolution than whether the resolution is accurate, beneficial or even if it really makes sense.

From the Zen perspective, the self—who we think we are—is the subject of great interest. As we look more closely at our actual experience, it’s quite hard to find the self who is allegedly at the center of it all. I might reasonably say, ‘I am writing these words on my laptop.’ But who is the one who is writing these words? I respond, ‘I am having thoughts that I’m typing onto the keyboard.’ But who is the one having these thoughts? Words and thoughts are certainly arising in my awareness, but where are they coming from? Who is the one who is doing the thinking? Who is doing the typing? To say, ‘I am.’ begs the question. Who is this ‘I’ that ‘I’ talk about so often? If I’m honest, I have to admit that I have no idea who is at the center of it all. There are thoughts. There is typing. There is wondering. That’s all I can really vouch for.

While this may sound interesting, it can be quite unsettling when we begin to realize that we really don’t know who we are on this fundamental level—that this self and personal history that we will go to extreme lengths to defend, is not as solid as we would like to believe. And this is not just academic because this unconscious urge to solidify the self is at the core of the hatred and self-righteousness that tear us apart.

The urgent work of our country and the urgent work of our planet is to find ways to cut through the separation of certainty that leads to hatred, violence and endless suffering. Courage is required to do the necessary work of the moment—courage to face our own internal demons and delusive certainties as well as courage to take action and stand up for justice, accountability and compassion.

These are not easy times, but these are times of great opportunity—to step beyond whatever bubble we have been living in, into the great diversity, confusion and vividness of life itself. We are called to do this for ourselves, for our brothers and sisters, and for this fragile planet that is part of who we are.

Continuing Commitment

The Joint Chiefs of Staff sent a letter to the 1.3 million men and women that comprise our active-duty armed services and the 811,000 more that are serving in the National Guard condemning the action of January 6 and reminding them of their sworn duty to the constitution. NPR reported part of the text:

“The violent riot in Washington, D.C. on January 6, 2021 was a direct assault on the U.S. Congress, the Capitol building, and our Constitutional process,” the memorandum said. “We witnessed actions inside the Capitol building that were inconsistent with the rule of law. The rights of freedom of speech and assembly do not give anyone the right to resort to violence, sedition and insurrection.”

This is good news. The coup has clearly failed and Trump’s support for his spurious contention of a stolen election has splintered. Though a small number of right-wing extremist groups have been roused to a white heat by his ongoing rhetoric, many of Trumps former supporters, both on Capital Hill and throughout the country are finally stepping out of his self-justifying and fear mongering toxic bubble. There is still real danger of sporadic acts of violence but the military and the FBI now seem to be taking this threat quite seriously and making preparations.

The Republican Party seems to be in the middle of extricating itself from its four-year love affair with a genius narcissist. This will not be an easy parting.   The reckoning between the Trumpists and those who would hope to reclaim the name and genuine meaning of conservative will be bitter and fierce. Then there will be the accounting for the lying and misdeeds on both sides. It will not be pretty or smooth, but for many of us it has been a long four years (or more) in the coming and the marginalization of Trump and all he stands for cannot come soon enough.

There will also be specific charges against Trump and those who have done his bidding. I suspect today’s impeachment proceedings in the House are just the first of many public trials for Trump and some of his most ardent followers. Trump has spent five years egging crowds on with ‘Lock her up.’ chants about his former Presidential opponent. Many of us were shocked with the idea of locking up one’s political opponents, but Trump’s behavior as President has been immoral and, I believe, illegal and he himself may end up with the fate he has so fervently wished for his opponents.

We should all continue to be nervous, but we should all resist the temptation to while away our days glued to our media sources. The wish for revenge is near to the wish to scapegoat. Though they rouse our passion, they do not lead toward lasting solutions to the very real problems we face as a nation and a world. As MLK Jr. said

“Darkness cannot drive out darkness, only light can do that. Hate cannot drive out hate, only love can do that.”

Let us not fall into the world Trump has created around us. Let us not fall into the facile escape of dividing the world into ‘us’ and ‘them’. We must acknowledge our common ground as human beings even as we stand firm for accountability and a reckoning with the truth. Reconciliation must be our goal but we must not forget.

Our democracy appears to be coming back from the brink of dissolution, but there is much work to be done. The inner work for all of us is to deal with the personal fear, anger and even hate that arises. Returning again to the words of MLK Jr.:

‘Hating someone will destroy you, not the people you are hating. If you‘re in a place of hating someone, you need to let go. Choose love over hate.’

Choosing love, as MLK Jr. demonstrated with his life, is not about inaction, weakness or sweeping things under the rug. It requires a fierce confrontation with the realities of institutional racism, classism, sexism that are woven into our better intentions for justice, equality and fairness.

So let us proceed together in facing the truth and re-weaving the fabric of this grand experiment in democracy in which we find ourselves.

Some Encouraging Signs

Our national crisis continues. Yesterday, the House of Representatives filed Articles of Impeachment against Trump. This time, the charge is ‘incitement of insurrection’ and includes excerpts from the speech he gave his supporters before they stormed the capital and also his January 2 phone call to the Georgia Secretary of State in which Trump asked him to ‘find’ the votes Trump needed to win the state. The House will vote on the Articles today and begin the impeachment on Wednesday.

Meanwhile, Trump and his administration appear to be in hiding. There have been no briefings from the White House, FBI, Department of Homeland Security or the Justice Department about what happened on January 6 and what is being done to contain the ongoing threat of violence. The investigation of the insurrection, arrests, and preparation against future threats does appear, however, to be continuing.

But today, I am most encouraged by other events over the weekend:

• Twitter and Facebook have ‘deplatformed’ Donald Trump and all his accounts.
• Major US Corporations (BlueCross-BlueShield and Marriott among others) have announced they will stop contributing to Senate and House members that voted against counting the Electoral College for Joe Biden.
• Deutsche Bank, one of the only banks that would still work with Trump has announced it will no longer do business with him.
• The PGA has announced they are moving the 2022 golf championships from Trump’s golf course in New Jersey.
• Even my Wesleyan classmate and football coaching genius past Trump supporter Bill Belichick has turned down Trump’s offer of a Presidential Medal of Freedom saying: ‘Above all, I am an American citizen with great reverence for our nation’s values, freedom, and democracy.’

Though I don’t think Trump will lose sleep over being jilted by Bill, the tide has clearly turned against him and the backlash that many of us have hoped for for the past four years appears to be gathering momentum.  All of these sanctions and consequences of Trump’s actions diminish his power right now and over the coming months and years. This is indeed a good thing for us all. The economic ramifications for Trump and the whole Trump brand are significant and will greatly reduce his influence and power going forward.

In the midst of all this, we are engaged in coming to a new understanding of how a democracy can function in the time of the internet. Part of Trump’s power has been his ability to say anything, and we know this really means anything, without being held accountable. Twitter and Facebook have allowed him to make patently false claims as if they were true – without having to answer questions.

Trump’s steadfast creation of an alternate reality to suit his purposes has been the hallmark of his time as President. He and his allies in the media and online have created a full service information system that reflects and amplifies itself to the delight and detriment of millions of Americans. This perpetuation of misinformation has given cover for those Republican politicians who know very well that the election was free and fair, to falsely claim otherwise to satisfy their base and to maintain their power. These ongoing and mendacious statements led directly to the violent attempt to seize the Capital on January 6.

This kind of false free speech cannot be tolerated if our democracy is to function. While we are all against censorship, apparently we need to adjust our limits of what kind of speech is acceptable and useful. Already we have libel laws and other limits on public speech, so that there must be boundaries even to free speech is not a new idea for us Americans, but it will be a difficult discussion to have to find our way to new limits to protect our democracy and ensure that we are not as vulnerable to an authoritarian movement as we have found ourselves to be.

(For a more thorough exploration of our current issues of free speech see Thomas Edsall’s presentation of the issue and opinions both pro and con in his op-ed piece in the New York Times that came out on January 6, the day the Capital was stormed, Have Trump’s Lies Wrecked Free Speech?)

Some of Trump’s former Congressional supporters are now trying to avoid accountability by calling for ‘lowering the temperature’ and not moving forward with impeachment. Now, in the wake of an armed insurrection that came terrifyingly close to harming or kidnapping the three highest ranking government officials beneath the President, the Republicans who supported and stirred up this movement are now calling for moderation.

My friend Robert Hubbell calls this False Equivalency (though I have to claim prior trademark on that title from January 8) in his post today:

 As Americans continue to grapple with the ramifications of the Capitol Insurrection, we must refuse to accept false equivalency from those who seek “healing” without accountability. Those who encouraged or excused the violence must not be recognized as responsible members of our democracy unless and until they admit their complicity, ask forgiveness, and make amends. To date, those responsible for the violence are refusing to acknowledge their role in encouraging violence.

We should be moderate but determined. We must hold people, especially our elected officials, accountable for their words and their actions. But as we pursue this accountability, let us remember how easily we become infected with the virus of hate and either/or thinking. We are all always in danger of falling into our own self-reinforcing bubble of ignorance.

Let us proceed with courage and compassion. Let us act in alignment with the values of justice, truth and decency as we work to repair the ancient wounds that are woven into our country and to meet the grave challenges of this political moment.

(I would urge you all to at least occasionally read Robert Hubbell’s daily summary of the news along with Heather Cox Richard’s ‘Letters from an American’—both are referenced from a wide variety of news sources and well worth the time.)

#4 Zazen is Participation in Life (part 2)

My second understanding of the fourth of the 31 Fundamental Teachings of Zen (Zazen is participation in life) comes from a teaching my teacher passed on to me decades ago in the first years I was studying with him. I came to him one day distraught and in tears. I think it was about the pressure I was feeling in my new job of being Headmaster of a private school. Whether it was about finances or student or staff behavior, I can’t remember. But things were really not going well and I was feeling totally overwhelmed. I went to him as a teacher and exemplar of Zen, hoping he would have an answer.

He listened as I talked and cried, then said in the kindest voice, ‘You don’t expect Zen to save you from your life, do you?’ As I write it, it sounds almost cruel, but in that moment, it felt incredibly loving and shifted something deep inside. He was inviting me to give up the impossible task of fixing and controlling and to begin to fully participate in my life.

The path of Zen is not about withdrawing into states of equanimity and bliss, but rather to find our true home right in the middle of what is happening here. When I am feeling exhausted and overwhelmed, the way of Zen is to be fully exhausted and overwhelmed. Looking to fix or escape just increases the suffering.

Fully allowing what is here to be here can be a great relief. Our lives are continually flowing on—one mind state constantly turns into the next. Thoughts and opinions, feelings and sensations continually arise and pass away. We solve one problem, then the next problem appears. Control is impossible. Any fix we come up with is temporary at best. It appears increasingly evident that neither you nor I are the ruler of the universe. Everything around us and we ourselves are coming into being and then certainly passing away. A life spent trying to fix or manage reality is exhausting and futile.

Zazen is participating in life.

We are invited to give up our endless objections and join in. The entryway to our true life is whatever is going on right now. Right here where you sit and read these words. Perhaps you are feeling energized and inspired to fight for our democratic institutions that were so visibly threatened in the insurrection of January 6. Or maybe you are feeling discouraged and overwhelmed by the ongoing conflict and division of our country. Or sick and tired of it all. Or just enjoying how effortlessly life goes on amidst all the drama.

THIS IS IT.

As I continually delight is saying – This is the bad news and the good news. There is not some other place we should be. We cannot someday escape to the fantasy land of enlightenment.   There is no way around the impossible and truly ungraspable situation of this moment. But this is it, also means that this very place is the place you have been looking for. This very moment with all the thoughts, feelings and sensations that are here, is the entryway to your true life—a life of freedom and appreciation.

This is not an invitation to abdicate our responsibility to stand up for compassion, justice and fairness. Allowing things to be as they are creates the space for us to see clearly the pain and suffering going on around us and to act boldly against all forms of oppression, intimidation and injustice.

In our wholehearted participation in our lives, in the fully impossible and wondrous conundrum of being human, we can find a place to rest right where we are. Winning and losing, solving and not solving, engaging and withdrawing—life flows on unimpeded and available to each one of us.

I’m reminded of the wonderful song from the Native People of this land: ‘Why do I go about pitying myself, when all the time I am being carried on great winds across the sky?’

** I forgot to mention in yesterday’s blog that you’re all invited to join the Boundless Way Zen Temple in any one (or all) of our eight weekly meditation on-line practice periods. We practice participating in our lives together through zazen, chanting, talks and discussion. No experience necessary, just use the link at our website (www.worcesterzen.org) and come ten minutes early for a brief welcome and introduction.

#4 Zazen is Participation in Life (part 1)

Zazen is a fancy word for seated meditation. Za means seated and zen means meditation. In the Zen Buddhist tradition, zazen is our primary practice. We are encouraged to make time every day to sit in an upright and motionless posture and practice zazen. We can do this alone or in the company of others, in person or virtually**. As students of the Zen way, we also gather for intensive periods of practice that include chanting, walking meditation, work practice, listening to talks, going to individual meetings with the teacher—but are primarily centered on ongoing periods of sitting in stillness and silence. The traditional image of a Zen practitioner – a monk in meditation robes with a shave head sitting serenely motionless in front of a carefully tended garden of raked stones – embodies this ancient practice of zazen.

But point #4 from 31 Fundamental Teachings of Zen says: ‘Zazen is participation in life.’ What could this mean?

I understand this in two ways. First, when we are doing our zazen practice of sitting still, we are not practicing for some other time. We are not practicing music to be able to perform it at the recital. Our stillness and silence IS our life. We are not trying to achieve special states of concentration or transcendence. What we are doing as we sit is intentionally, in that moment, participating in living our true lives.

Many of us associate living with doing things. We are eager to make good use of our time. We often want to make sure we are doing what we should be doing, that we are using our lives well. Sitting still in meditation can look like it is simply a break from the busyness to pause and catch our breath before we jump back into our routine busyness. In one way, this is true. It genuinely can be a real relief to interrupt the incessant activity of our lives and DO nothing for a while. Just a short break can clear our heads and allow us to be more present in whatever we were doing.

But anyone who has sat still for more than a few moments knows that though the body may come into relative stillness, the mind is much more unruly. After a few breaths in stillness, the mind is often off to the races. Like a little puppy, it dashes here and there—thinking about what just happened, what is happening and what will happen. It doesn’t like to stay still. Though we may be in a meditation pose and even in a meditation hall, we quickly discover that the whole world has come with us.

Our zazen quickly becomes learning how to meet ourselves and work with ourselves in all our many different mind-states. Rather than trying to cut everything off (which is impossible except for brief moments) we practice the skill of appreciating what is arising without getting carried away with it. We don’t resist and we don’t follow. We learn how to participate in the life that comes to us. Rather than trying to escape or control, we pay attention and practice allowing what is already here to be here.

We really don’t have a choice, but as we slowly release our certainty that things should be different, we can participate in the fullness of our life as it actually is.

It’s not that we have to like everything, but we can slowly learn to give up our ancient struggle and allow ourselves to join in the life that is already here.

Personal Practice: Find a quiet room (in a pinch, a bathroom will do just fine) and set the timer on your phone for two minutes. Settle into an upright and dignified seated posture. Start your timer. Notice your breath. Notice the sensations in your body. Notice the feelings and thoughts that are present. Let everything be as it is—even your wondering if you are doing this right. When your timer sounds, take a deep breath, smile in appreciation and go about the rest of your day.

(Tomorrow: A second take on Zazen is participation in life.)

A False Equivalency

Being heroic for the cause of overthrowing the Constitution of the United States is not equivalent to risking personal danger for the cause of defending human dignity and justice.  We don’t celebrate the bravery of the perpetrators of 9/11 or of suicide bombers or of other terrorists. Though these individuals construe their actions as the highest patriotism to what they love, their actions are a form of violent extremism that must be sanctioned and stopped.

The generals and soldiers of the Confederate Army may have been brave individuals, but they were fighting to retain their inhumane privilege to treat other human beings as property, for the right to be able to inflict bodily harm on men, women and children whose skin was a different color. Their choice to give their lives to the cause of brutality does not make them heroes. The Confederate flag that flew over the Capital along with Trump’s personal flag is a symbol of one of the sources of Trump’s power—the desperate fear of some whites of a society in which the whiteness of their skin does not guarantee power over others whose skin is a different hue.

A friend spoke last night of their anger at the mob that overran the Capital building on Wednesday. Then they remembered their participation in demonstrations to end the Vietnam War in the early 70’s and said they would have welcomed the opportunity to storm the Capital building at that point. They talked about the humanity of those breaching the capital and the need for understanding.

This is true—each person in the mass of people that stormed the Capital is a human being and was most likely acting in a manner that they viewed as brave. They were following Donald Trump’s explicit directive to prevent the ‘stealing of the election.’ In their minds, they saw their actions as trying to ‘preserve our democracy.’

But the voter fraud that Trump and other Republicans have been talking about has no basis in fact. Despite unprecedented scrutiny and countless recounts, no significant fraud has been found anywhere in the country—not one county or precinct has been found to have unfairly voted, counted or reported. Not one.

The purpose of those who stormed the Capital on Wednesday was to overthrow the legitimate result of the Presidential election and thereby overthrow the rightfully elected government of the United States. This was an act of domestic terrorism aided and abetted by Donald Trump and the Congressional Representatives and Senators that have promulgated these unfounded allegations in the face of all evidence.

Sadly, there is increasing evidence of intentional efforts on the part of the Capital Police leadership and the Department of Defense to ‘stand down’ in the face of the expected violent demonstrations. The Washington Post reported that the Pentagon, led by Trump sycophant Christopher Miller as Secretary of Defense, set strong limits on the District guardsmen that contributed to the catastrophic failure of security at the Capital on Wednesday.

Speaker Pelosi and Majority Leader Schumer have jointly called for Pence to evoke the 25^th Amendment and remover Trump from power. Failing that, they are threatening to begin impeachment proceedings. Trump has been banned from Facebook until after the transition of power and a number of members of his administration are resigning in protest. This is all good news.

Whatever happens over the next ten days, Trump’s power will continue. But the growing number of Republicans who have finally stood up and repudiated the logical conclusion to the Trumpism that they have supported for four years is encouraging.

Meanwhile, Biden has been a steady presence. He directly and immediately denounced the violence and has continued gathering his team and preparing to assume the reins of a country in crisis. Trump’s seditious actions have directly contributed to a emerging realization of the true danger he poses to this country and, perhaps, to a willingness of Republicans to work with Biden for the good of the country in the days and months ahead.

And, lost in all this drama, buried far down the front page of the NY Times, is the article ‘US Sets New Death and Daily Case Records’ that reports pandemic deaths in the United States have exceeded 4,000 per day for the first time since the virus began. As these current historic events get to be written down in history books, I suspect the lead story and Trump’s greatest culpability will be for the hundreds and thousands of deaths that have come from his refusal inability to lead the country in a united response to this pandemic.

No happy ending this morning, except to continue to appreciate the determined actions of the majority of Senate and House to validate the election, to condemn the violence Trump has incessantly incited and to move us closer to the end of his disastrous tenure.

Democracy Prevails

One hour ago, the Senate and the House of Representatives voted to confirm the election of Joe Biden and Kamala Harris as the next President and Vice-President of the United States! They fulfilled their constitutional duty in spite of a coup attempt by an angry mob inspired by Trump’s lies of voter fraud. For several unbelievable hours, the mob of Trump loyalists waving Trump flags and Confederate flags roamed aimlessly in the Capital building, vandalizing the building and forcing elected officials to evacuate under threat of bodily harm.

How the mob breached the building so easily is a mystery, but nowhere did we see the militarized police response that seemed to be the norm when the protestors in the streets included black and brown bodies. Though the Capital police kept the elected officials safe, they seemed to treat the insurrectionists with respect and deference, even as they breached the sacred halls of democracy.

Make no mistake, this was a coup attempt, inspired and led by our sitting President. His months of lies, his calls to come to Washington and even his remarks to the same crowd that morning urging them to march to the Capital were the source of this rage and violence against the institutions of democracy. Republican Senator, Mitt Romney put it this way: “What happened here today was an insurrection incited by the president of the United States.”

The good news is that they failed.

It turns out that even Mike Pence and Mitch McConnell, who have been enablers in chief for Trump’s lies and ongoing seditious behavior, stood firmly against Trump’s mob. Republicans and Democrats, minus a small minority, stood together to defend the election and the will of the American people. Both chambers immediately reconvened after the Capital building had been cleared and proceeded to duly ratify the results of the Electoral College.

This morning, though we have less than two weeks until Trump will be duly removed from office, there are calls for the invocation of the 25^th amendment that provides for the removal of the President in case of his incapacity to govern or for his immediate impeachment. He has demonstrated, now even to most of his formerly loyal cronies, that he is unfit for the office of President of the United States—a fact that some of us have believed for the past four years.

The drama of yesterday afternoon almost obscures the wondrous news that was emerging earlier in the day that BOTH senate races in Georgia were won by the Democratic challengers. Four years ago the Presidency, the Senate and the House were all controlled by Republicans, as the inauguration on January 20, they will be controlled by the Democrats. Along with the incalculable damage Trump has wrought on our democracy and the dangerously insular right-wing conspiracy-driven media bubble he has promoted, this shift of governmental control is part of Trump’s legacy as well.

But we are not home free.

No matter what happens between now and the Biden-Harris inauguration, it will take us years to recover. And we must go beyond ‘recovery.’ The racist roots of our political divide were on full display yesterday in both the seemingly lax actions of the police in response to the ‘white’ mob who seemed to stroll into the Capital and in the flying of the Confederate flag – a symbol of a system of brutal oppression and torture of millions human beings of black and brown skin – fondly remembered and mythologized by Q-Anon and Trump’s most ardent right-wing followers.

All decent Republicans should put as much distance as they can between themselves and Trump’s racist and authoritarian view of our country. We should unite to condemn the insurrectionists that stormed the Capital yesterday as well as Trump and the other political leaders who have fanned the flames of false conspiracy for their own personal gain.

The Politics of Treason

As I write this, on Wednesday morning January 6, 2021, one Democratic incumbent, Rev. Raphael Warnock has defeated Republican Senator Kelly Loeffler and though the second Democratic challenger, Jon Ossoff, is slightly ahead in his race, the results are too close to call. This is an extraordinary result already, and to think that the Democrats might regain control of the Senate is something that seemed almost unthinkable a year ago. But whatever the outcome, the challenges facing our country over the next four years are huge.

For the past several weeks, I have been limiting myself to skimming headlines and reading about sports and have enjoyed writing about Zen, being in a bad mood and my grandson (my favorite topics). But this morning I feel compelled, once again, to consider the wild and treasonous actions of our sitting President. Today is the day a joint session of the House and Senate convenes to accept the results of the Electoral College.

Over the weekend Trump called Georgia’s Secretary of State Brad Raffensperger, and spent an hour on the phone trying to convince him to ‘find’ the votes necessary to change the results of the election. This was a brazen (and recorded) attempt to tamper with official election results, a clear breach of our constitutionally protected right of free and fair elections. After Trump made spurious allegations about the call the next day, someone released the recording of the call for all to hear Trump’s baseless claims and perhaps not so baseless threats.

Trump has also been publically pressuring Mike Pence to use powers he doesn’t have to refuse to accept the results of the Electoral College in the Senate. Pence, who has been Trump’s fawning and willing accomplice over the last four years, is said to be trying to lower the President’s expectations while staying in his good favor.

And on top of all of this, there are the Republican Representatives and Senators who have publically said they will be officially objecting to the Electoral College results presented today. This logically indefensible stance appears to be their way of showing their allegiance to Trump who still appears to control the base of Republicans he has radicalized over his four years in office.

The good news is that a number of Republican Senators have strongly condemned the brazenly self-serving and extremist position of their colleagues (though no one appears to be willing to take on Trump directly, even after all this.)

In discussing this in his post this morning, my still favorite political news source, Robert Hubbell, refers to a Facebook post by Republican Senator Ben Sasse:

See Senator Ben Sasse, “What Happens on January 6th?” Although the entire post is remarkable, the most remarkable passage is this Q&A:

         ‘Do any of your colleagues disagree with you about this [not objecting to Electoral votes]?  When we talk in private, I haven’t heard a single Congressional Republican allege that the election results were fraudulent – not one. Instead, I hear them talk about their worries about how they will “look” to President Trump’s most ardent supporters.’

         Please go back and read the quoted passage again, carefully. Ben Sasses admits the ugly truth of the radical extremists’ motivations. In private conversations, “not one” of the congressional Republicans “alleges that the election results were fraudulent.” Instead, they worry “about how they will “look” to President Trump’s most ardent supporters.” In other words, the radical extremists are cowards who are willing to abandon the Constitution to curry favor with Trump’s base. Shameful.

Trump’s actions since the election on November 3^rd have been increasingly blatant in their treasonous intention. Since early October, many of us have had real concerns about the possibility of a political coup—an illegitimate grab for power or attempt to stay in power in contradiction to the laws and practices of our constitution. Speaking with a colleague in Belgium yesterday, I expressed my continuing concern with Trump’s ongoing and illegal power grab.

I am hopeful, but not certain, that the so-called ‘guardrails of democracy’ will hold. Both the House and Senate would have to agree to dismiss the results of the Electoral College and this will not happen. (See NY Times article What to Expect When Congress Meets to Certify Biden’s Victory for a clear explanation of today’s process.)

We are in this for the long haul. Whatever happens today, the work of staying engaged and moving our country back toward a civil society based conversation, respectful disagreement and democratic principles is an ongoing process. Free and fair elections must be protected and authoritarian impulses of Trump and many of his followers must be actively countered with principles, information and dialogue.

Today’s encouragement:

• Stay informed (but don’t read/watch/listen too much),
• express your opinions (with respect and conviction) and
• talk-and-listen to people who do not share your views (even family members).

#10 There is no roadmap

# 10  There is no roadmap. There is no system – only the trackless love of the universe. Burn your rule book. Beyond form and emptiness, beyond koan practice, beyond Zen. The point of our practice is not Zen – it is aliveness.*

It is easy when hearing about or even studying Zen, to imagine that you are being presented with a clear path (Zen practice) toward a clear goal (enlightenment). From this perspective, we listen to Dharma talks and read books to try to understand the Way so we can dutifully follow the path and then someday arrive at the destination. This is a misguided understanding of Zen that, rather than liberate us, simply holds us in a new kind of bondage.

There is no roadmap.

The true teaching of the Zen way is that the world is not an object that can be considered and mapped out. Life is not a ‘thing’ that can be comprehended by the pre-frontal cortex. Our human minds of reason are a wonderful resource in certain situations, but they are quite limited when we begin to turn to the essential nature of life itself.

The words and images that arise in the mind, including the words and images that arise when we talk about Buddhism and Zen and enlightenment are all delusions. They may be temporarily useful, but they are not the thing itself. There is no way to capture the Dharma or God or reality in any descriptions we use.

While the guidance of a teacher and a tradition can be a wonderful and perhaps even necessary part of an authentic spiritual journey, there is no road-map. There is no set of practices or procedures that will get us from here to there.

In Zen we sometimes say ‘Practice teaches us how to practice.’ By ‘practice’ we mean this intentional turning toward life itself. In our tradition, this practice is centered around our devotion to sitting upright and still as a way of expressing our willingness to allow the world and ourselves to be just as we are. Seated meditation is a way to relax our ancient habit of trying to control and to cultivate a basic friendliness toward whatever arises.

It is impossible to ‘know’ what we are doing. We can never measure our progress in any meaningful way. We can find ease and clarity, but if we try to put it into words or to ‘know’ it in the traditional sense, we have moved one step away the very thing we are after. Our path, our practice itself then becomes simply another idol to worship and we are lost once again. This is what the great Chinese teacher Linji meant when he said ‘If you meet the Buddha on the road, kill him.’

Anything you can concretize, imagine and hold onto is not what you are after. ‘There is no system – only the trackless love of the universe. Burn your rule book.’ The path of Zen is not an intricate and subtle wisdom system that, if you learn it, will save you. We are all perpetual wanderers in ‘the trackless love of the universe.’

The mind is certain of its position. The mind/self says: ‘I am in here and the rest of the world is out there.’ ‘There are certain things and qualities of being that I don’t have, that if I did have, my life would be better.’ While we might appreciate these internal perspectives as signs of realism and good mental health, they are, at the same time, limited and even false perspectives.

We abide and are held in a vast mystery that is both totally incomprehensible and intimately available. When we ask the question ‘Where is the Dharma?’ or ‘Where is God?’ or ‘Where is this trackless love you speak of?’—the answer is always: ‘Right here.’ There is nothing but this one moment that fills the entire universe. There is no path to what you long for, because what you long for is already here. You have never, from the very beginning, been separated from this.

As we practice (and I do believe practice is required), we are not progressing along some path. We are not accumulating tokens and advancing toward some destination. We are wandering in the boundless and incomprehensible fields of aliveness. No measurement is possible or necessary.

Settle in and appreciate your life.

* from the unpublished and apocryphal text 31 Fundemantal Teachings of Zen