Owning Our Choices
- At April 30, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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Marshall Rosenberg, the founder of the Center Nonviolent Communication, has been an important teacher in my life. I have never met him, but many years ago I listened to a set of his CD’s that changed my view of the world. It is such a blessing when the words we hear or read find their way into our hearts. In these moments, we step into new possibilities for ourselves and for the world in which we live. Sometimes we don’t even know it until years later when a teacher’s words or the tone of their voice appear as guides in moments of need.
I’ll never forget hearing Rosenberg’s reassuring voice saying that he reached a turning point in his life when he decided not to do anything he didn’t want to do. This is a rather shocking and seemingly narcissistic thing to say and really caught my attention.
Nonviolent Communication (NVC) is based on the assumption that all human beings have needs, that we are hard-wired to respond to each other’s needs and that our main problem is that we don’t listen deeply enough to ourselves and to each other to clarify these needs. Rosenberg is also great believer in the freedom of human beings—that we are, at each moment, choosing what we do and what we don’t do.
In yesterday’s reflection I touched on the impact when we use the internal language of coercion—‘I have to do this.’—to describe our actions. We so easily give away our power and live in a world of imagined helplessness. Now there are certainly many things we are powerless over, but at the core of human experience, there is this choosing, even in the most constrained and limited circumstances.
Rosenberg’s instruction to not do what you don’t want to do goes like this: Look at all the activities that you do in your life. (Perhaps quite limited for many of us right now.) Sort them into a list of things you want to do and things you don’t want to do. Next: look at the list of things you don’t want to do, and either find a reason you want to do them, or stop doing them.
He used the example of driving his children to school every day. Rosenberg noticed that he approached this task with little enthusiasm and often found himself grumbling about all the time it took away from his work. When he thought about it, he realized that he really cared about the school his children went to and that his daily driving was part of what made it possible for his children to get the kind of education he wanted for them. Therefore, he realized that he wanted to drive them to school every day. This shift in perspective changed his language and changed his experience of this activity.
Rosenberg did go on to say that he couldn’t find a good reason to do some things on the ‘Don’t Want To Do’ list. He found other people to do some of these items and some simply did not get done.
Examining our deeper wants and needs is another way to work with the sense of resistance and pressure many of us feel when we look at our calendars for the day ahead. Whenever you hear yourself say ‘I don’t want to do this’, stop for a moment and ask yourself if that is really true. When you look deeper, can you find reasons why you are actually choosing to do this?
It’s not that everything is easy and comfortable. Some things we choose to do because of practical necessity—we might choose to go to work we don’t like because we want the money that allows us to pay our rent. Or we choose difficult actions because of who we want to be in the world or because we choose to live out values that are important to us.
This practice of not pretending we are helpless can be surprisingly powerful. You might want to try it today. Notice the next time you feel less than happy in what you are doing or what you are about to do. Then stop and ask yourself what is underneath this; what deeper value or intention does this action serve? Now make your choice.
In this way, we align our actions with our hearts and realize our natural freedom at each moment in our lives.
On Choosing
- At April 29, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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As our collective staying-at-home practice has dragged on, most of us have gone through many different mind-states. At first, perhaps, our new lives of sheltering-in-place were exciting and unusual. Then many of us began to find our way into new rhythms and patterns of living, our new normal. Now the news is reporting on ‘isolation fatigue’ and we are wondering how long we will be able to go on without having the freedom to move around, buy things in person and hug each other again.
One of my friends spoke recently of the freedom of time she felt during the first weeks at home. Most everything on her calendar had been cancelled and she felt a sense of openness and ease. Each day felt spacious. Moment after moment she got to choose what to do next. Now she’s back to a familiar sense of being busy – scheduled zoom meetings and new versions of commitments have re-filled her schedule and her mind.
I’ve been feeling this as well. Last week, I wrote about my relationship with my past self, the one who creates the schedule that I have to deal with when I wake up each morning. Sometimes, I can’t imagine what he was thinking as he scheduled multiple conversations back to back to back—or when he imagined this old body could go on one long walk with a friend in the morning, then another with another friend in the afternoon. I mean, really!
The shifts in perspective we have all been living through are actually a wonderful opportunity to look more deeply at some of the patterns and beliefs that keep us stuck in less than fulfilling lives. Looking more closely at our sense of ‘busyness’ can be a doorway to a life of greater freedom and ease.
Busyness is the addiction of our culture. We are obsessed with how much we do and how much we produce. Being busy is a signal to ourselves and to the world around us that we are a person of importance. We are doing as much as we can so we’re not really responsible for the things we can’t get to. We complain and commiserate but we can’t find our way out of the maze. We have forgotten our basic power and responsibility.
We are always choosing. Yes, there are consequences to our choices, but we are always the one who is choosing. We can blame our past selves or our boss or the circumstances of our lives, but in the end, we are each free to choose and we are responsible for our choices.
As humans, we often fall into a sense of ‘obligation.’ ‘I don’t want to do the dishes, but I have.’ ‘I don’t want to make that phone call, but I have to because I said I would.’ Through these internal conversations, we live large parts of our lives as if we were not free. We (and I include myself in this) waste our energy in resentment and we lose ourselves in the dark tangle of wishing things were otherwise.
How do we find our freedom in the middle of complicated lives and multiple responsibilities? One way is to notice when you are feeling constricted, obligated and unfree. When are you thinking ‘I wish I didn’t have to do this’? When does the complaint arise ‘I don’t want to be doing this’? Without noticing when we are feeling caught, we can’t find our way to some other way of living.
So today, is it possible to notice how you move between feeling of ease and pressure? Feelings of lightness and heaviness? Feelings of freedom and of obligation? Don’t try to make it different, just notice what it’s like right where you are. What does it feel like? What story are you telling yourself about what you’re doing in the moment? (More on freedom tomorrow.)
Merely Observe Flowers
- At April 28, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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One of the ancillary benefits of Zoom is that you get a tiny glimpse into other people’s lives through what is behind them as they show up on your screen. While some of us zoomers choose fancy artificial backgrounds and others carefully curate a neutral background, most of us are content to display some small sections of our lives without worrying too much about it.
One of the participants (from Belgium) of our Boundless Way Temple Zoom meditation sessions had a lovely calligraphy scroll on the wall behind her the other day that some of us noticed and commented on. While she herself didn’t know what the characters meant, she sent a photo and one of our other members (from Pittsburgh) tracked down the meaning through a Reddit group. It’s the second line of a two-line poem by Liang Xianzhi, a Chinese poet from the Qing Dynasty (1644 to 1912).
Do not try to understand human affairs, merely observe flowers
As an aging gardener in the middle of a global pandemic, I take this as confirmation of what appears more and more evident to me. Human beings are endlessly difficult and confounding. I give myself a headache when I read or listen or watch too much news. The political maneuverings and power plays—the incessant blaming and vilifying of others—the sheer complexity of human affairs often feels overwhelming to me.
The garden and the flowers are a healing balm—an antidote to the fears and disturbances that so often pervade human interaction. The flowers are perfect teachers. They don’t give lectures or tests and you don’t have to take notes. The flowers don’t even demand that you pay attention. It’s all up to you. They simply show the way through their presence.
The flowers teach beauty and generosity. Each one, however large or small, expresses the essence of life. The daffodils have been lecturing incessantly for the past five weeks–bright yellows, oranges and creams in various sizes and shapes. Their subtle fragrances and filigree belies their robust constitution. They survive the snow and sway easily with wind.
In their honor, I’ve decided to modify the meaning of the verb ‘to garden.’ Usually ‘to garden’ means ‘to cultivate or work in a garden.’ I’d like to take the work out it to expand the meaning to include ‘the act of walking through or sitting in a garden.’ This will now allow me to say, ‘I’m going out to garden’ and all I have to do is hang out in the garden.
‘Merely observe flowers’ is an invitation to turn our attention—to move from worried preoccupation to appreciative observation. We can choose to open our eyes and our hearts to receive the teachings of the flowers and the world around us. One worthy Zen teacher offered this pointer:
“Don’t seek transcendent enlightenment, just observe and observe—suddenly you’ll laugh out loud. Beyond this, there is nothing that can be said.’
Playing in the Dirt
- At April 27, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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These past weeks of social distancing have been a great time to garden. Without the distraction of being able to go out to restaurants and get together with others in person, there has been more time than usual to play in the dirt.
I have recently begun to suspect that there may be a genetic urge to dig in the soil as my grandson, at fourteen months old, can easily spend ten or fifteen minutes sitting down digging with his hands in the dirt. He clearly has his own wordless purposes and fascination with his activity. But from the outside, it looks like he is just picking up dirt from one place and letting it drop somewhere else. Already a gardener!
Though the weather of the past few weeks has been quite variable, I have been outside in the gardens of Boundless Way Temple most days. When the weather is good, I’ll spend an hour or two relocating various perennials or clearing out the winter debris or tending the various paths and beds. When the rain (or snow!) comes, I may just take a quick inspection tour to see what’s new and emerging. There’s always something to see and something to do.
I have a dear friend who is a ‘completest’, she gets great satisfaction from a kind of thoroughness and being able to check things off his list. I, on the other hand, tend to be an 80% kind of guy. I like to get most of the task done and then I’m on to the next project. I don’t have real ‘todo’ lists as much as I have lists of projects I want to work on. Her style can drive me nuts, but I like to do projects with her because things really get done. But my style works well in a large garden where the tasks are endless.
I suppose that’s one of the great appeals to me of caring for a garden. There’s always something that needs to be done—there’s always some way to be useful. Caring for the garden helps me feel like I am part of something greater than me. As long as I don’t think I’m ever going to finish, it gives me a ongoing purpose and sense of connecting to life itself.
In the garden, I am intimately engaged with the forces of growth and decay that have their own unstoppable momentum. In recent years, I have been more appreciative of the generative necessity of decay as part of the cycle of life/death that is the garden. Decomposition is what turns last year’s dead plant matter into useable form for these year’s plants to use for their renewed purposes.
Decay is an integral part of life. The microbes and fungi and tiny bugs and worms that break down the old branches and leaves and flowers are part what makes life possible. Without these lively beings who happily go about their own silent purposes, there would be no room for new life and nothing to nourish the next generation.
Even as I look from my morning chair to the miracle of my trays of sprouted seeds eagerly awaiting their time to be out in the real sun, I appreciate the liveliness of the garden as it already is. And I’m looking forward to going out in today’s rain to check up on the rising and the falling of the cool green life I call the Temple Garden in spring.
Without Justification
- At April 26, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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This morning,
rather than diagnosing
and recommending,
in pragmatic prose,
a way through
the current crisis,
I sip tea and
practice being
irresponsible.
The dark masters
gather and grumble
at my indolence,
but I courageously
resist their muttered
insults and seductions.
I have grown old
and weary in steadfast
pursuit of their fickle
approval; as if
freedom could happen
at some other time.
Every action chooses
dungeon or delight:
the futile quest for
self-earned grace or
some rougher sweet
enterprise depending
only on what has already
been freely given.
This morning
again I practice
resistance to
the ancient gods
of Self accomplishment
and vow to disappear
into just this
one life without justification.
Living With Uncertainty
- At April 25, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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Many commentators refer to these days as a time of uncertainty. This uncertainty is often cited as one of the most challenging aspects of our lives in the pandemic. But is this uncertainty really a bad thing? And whether it is or not, if this really is a time of uncertainty, how can we meet it in creative and constructive ways?
The human mind seems to like a clear and simple stories that explain the world around us. Our minds naturally move toward binary categories: Is our current uncertainty good or bad? Are we safe or in danger? Will we be OK or not? We just want to know.
Once the mind forms its opinion, we often feel a sense of relief—‘Well, at least I know.’ The opinion does not need to be true to be comforting. I don’t have to be accurate or complete in my thinking to feel right and settled in my opinion. The settledness of mind simply feels good. As long as there is uncertainty, some part of me is thinking and wondering and trying to solve the problem.
But one of the problems with ‘knowing’ is confirmation bias. Confirmation bias is the tendency human beings have to notice the things that confirm our opinion and either not see or not give the same weight to things that contradict our viewpoint. We tend to like people who agree with us (the ones who see the world as clearly as we do) and struggle with or avoid those who have other opinions.
In the Zen tradition, we say not-knowing is good. Rather than a problem to be solved, not-knowing is a way of directly meeting the reality of our lives. (As I write this, I am aware that I am now encouraging us to put ‘not-knowing’ in the binary category of ‘good’ as opposed to ‘bad’. While this is slightly ironic, creating the same feeling of certainty I was recently criticizing, it does seem useful in helping us meet and work skillfully with the ever-changing world around and within us.)
Shunryu Suzuki, the teacher who founded the San Francisco Zen Center, once famously said “In the beginner’s mind there are many possibilities, but in the expert’s there are few.” Being an expert means approaching a situation with a lot of experience; you already know what is going on and you know what you are going to do. While this can be wonderfully beneficial in some situations, for life in general, this kind of ‘knowing’ causes a narrowing of engagement with the world around us and fewer options going forward. We don’t see what is here, we simply see what we expect.
Part of our Zen training is learning to be comfortable with the discomfort of this sometimes unsettled feeling of not-knowing. As long as we think we ‘know’ we are stuck in the world of the past – the world of the mind. When we realize that we don’t know everything (or even very much at all), we can move with greater ease in the world that is constantly changing and evolving.
The truth is that we don’t ever really know what is coming next. You may think you know what the day will bring, and you may be right some large percentage of the time, but you never really know. Instead of trying to base our lives on how much we know, can we begin to create a foundation of not knowing – of openness to what arises from moment to moment?
Can we notice our natural desire for certainty and rather than trying to fix it by making up some fixed position, can we simply to allow ourselves not to know? Can we be more curious about what is here than about our opinions about what is here?
The great 20th century poet William Carlos Williams carried a pad of paper with him as he moved through his work day as a doctor making house calls. The top of the page was always titled ‘What I noticed today I have never noticed before.’
Maybe today we can all keep our eyes open just like he did.
Just Like the Astronauts
- At April 24, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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Here in Massachusetts we have been told for the past two weeks that the peak of the coronavirus will come sometime in the next two weeks. It still has not come. Or has it?
We don’t know. The rate of rise in number of infections has continued to bounce around. Some days it is lower, some days it is higher. Without knowing exactly how many tests are being administered and processed, it’s hard to make sense of these daily reportings. The number of cases and the number of deaths continue at a horrific pace, but still below the worst projections. Hospitals are still functioning. Perhaps our extreme social distancing has ‘flattened the curve’. But no one seems to be able to accurately be able to predict the timing or the amplitude of the coming peak.
Meanwhile, we go on as best we can with our daily lives of social distance. It’s as if we have all been recruited by life to be part of a giant social experiment: What happens when you cut people in a society off from physical contact with each other? Part of the answer is visible in the explosion of creative new ways of using the internet to connect with family, friends and the world around us. Virtual exercise classes, meditation, family meetings, cocktail parties and dating are now the ‘normal’ stuff of our lives.
The other impact I have noticed is a growing personal sensitivity. This sensitivity cuts both directions. I think I have been more aware of smaller things—of the pleasure of chopping vegetables and cooking food, of how much I rely on my contact with a few friends to share my ongoing story, of the number of people who make my life possible by growing and picking and transporting and stocking the food I take for granted, and of how much I love my mother.
I have also noticed that I am more sensitive than usual to the people and things around me in a not so good way. Like my issue with the weather of Wednesday. Cold days are a part of spring in New England, but Wednesday, it felt like a personal affront. Like how easily I get annoyed with the people I love most. It’s quite amazing how little things, that are usually no big deal, sometimes become the center of my attention. It’s like my skin suddenly becomes paper-thin and every contact feels like an irritation.
How did the astronauts manage those days and weeks in their tiny tin space capsules floating in space? What did the NASA training manual say to do when the way your co-astronaut was gulping their Tang began to drive you crazy? Should you tell them flat out to quit slurping like a barbarian? Or is it better to begin whistling your favorite song so you don’t hear the incessant lapping? Or perhaps begin a conversation about the weather to interrupt the guzzling? I wonder.
For me, I’m trying not to say everything that comes into my head, nor to investigate everything that might be going on behind my friend’s pained expression when I enthusiastically drink my morning coffee. I’m also trying to notice the rising and falling of the irritation itself. When I really pay attention, I’m amazed at how reactive I actually am.
Beneath the calm interior I usually imagine for myself, is wave upon and wave of rising and falling emotion. Both like and dislike constantly arise. Sometimes I hardly notice. Other times the emotion and sensation are strong. Looking closely, I find that even the most urgent arising, has a half-life and fairly quickly subsides. Irritation and annoyance are, for me, often a kind of heat that surges through my body. I feel a flooding of emotion that has a certain kind of urgency to it. This urgency rises and, if I do nothing, subsides on its own. Like a my grandson who can be screaming one moment, then get distracted by a book or a bouncing ball the next moment and seem to totally forget what the screaming was about.
Perhaps patience is just the ongoing awareness this natural process of rising and falling of emotions. Maybe we can be supported by our intention to be good and kind to those around us as we observe, rather than act on, the roller coaster of internal experience that is our birthright as humans?
Weather I Don’t Like
- At April 23, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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I know better than to complain about the weather but yesterday felt like winter and I didn’t like it one bit. The cold and the wind were too much for me. In fact, the temperatures and the weather patterns this whole spring are not what I would like them to be at all. I long for the gentle warmth and soft sunshine—for my little seedlings that are trapped indoors, huddling under grow lights and by southern windows—and for me.
I love April when it is warm with just a touch of cool. Those days before the heat of the summer when I can go outside and feel the earth releasing herself to the coming warmth. My body unclenches in places I didn’t know were clenched. The ground softens under my feet. With each step I sink in just a fraction and am viscerally reminded that I too belong here. I too, like the plants and the trees, like the bugs and the squirrels, I too am once again coming back to life. Even the moist air of a cool spring morning seems to nourish me with each breath.
Needless to say, it was not like that yesterday. The wind was harsh and the temperatures were positively wintery. My eyes watered each time I went out. I was cold even with my winter jacket on. I was cold all day, even inside.
Most everything that happened seemed wrong or out of kilter. I was reminded of a long Saturday afternoon many decades ago when I was in my early twenties and by myself. I felt left out and alone; like something good was going on somewhere else. I distinctly remember going to several different places to try to feel differently. And everywhere I went, I felt as if I was missing out on something else. I finally had the realization that I was just feeling left out and that there appeared, that day, to be nothing I could do about it. I was relieved to go home and stop trying to make it different.
While there’s not much return on complaining about the weather, that doesn’t stop me from sometimes getting lost in complaining about the weather. Spending time in the land of complaint is its own kind of internal weather. I learned long ago, and have to relearn again from time to time, that sometimes, there’s nothing to be done but to make your home where you are.
So today, my encouragement for us all is to notice the weather (both external and internal) and, whatever it is, to let it be. Complaining is just complaining. Ease is just ease. Life is simply expressing itself first in this form, then it that form. Can this be enough? Can we appreciate the preciousness of brevity of life in exactly the form that is appearing now? And when we can’t, can we appreciate that too?
Cycles of Sheltering In Place
- At April 22, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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Early spring is the perfect time to move many of the perennials in the Temple Garden. In garden-speak, a perennial is a relative term that describes any plant that survives the winter where it happens to be. The trees and woody shrubs are perennials that shelter in place. With the autumn freezes, they carefully drop their leaves and their bare branches hold tightly bound buds through the winter cold. Even more amazing are the plants that fully die back each year. In autumn, the leaves fully fall away. The plant gives up any intention of gathering light and retreats to the safety of subterranean dark and cold. Walking through a winter garden, these perennials are perfectly invisible.
I suppose we humans enact this cycle of dying back and rising every day. Each night we fall unconsciousness and lie mostly motionless, only to wake and rise when the light comes back. It’s like we too are dependent on the messages of light. We’re all energizer bunnies that run out of our charge when the sun goes down. We all stop and collapse, only to rise in the morning as if nothing had happened. The plants, who don’t make such a big fuss about this daily alternation of light and dark, must wonder about our frailty. Do my houseplants worry about my daily periods of lifeless behavior—afraid there will be no one to water them? Are they relieved each morning to sense me stirring and eventually walking again?
But yesterday morning, before the torrential rains of the afternoon, I moved some hay-scented fern from beside the walkway to the big pile of dirt and sticks which is my entry into the non-existent sculpture show ‘Buddhas Over Worcester.’ (More about this at another time.) Hay-scented fern is a wonderful perennial in New England that spreads by its roots. Ten years ago, I brought a few plants from our old house and planted them between the brick pathway and the western perimeter fence.
I imagined one day they would spread into a carpet of tender ferns along the pathway. Most of what I imagine for the garden does not come to pass or if it does, it is significantly different from my original plan. But, over the years, these dependable ferns have spread just as I had hoped. By June, they will be a blanket of finely cut leaves that move in the slights breeze, beautifying twenty or thirty feet along the walkway into the garden.
But right now, the ferns are small bent green wires just beginning to poke out of the ground—of no particular notice unless you remember their magic act from previous seasons. They have been sheltering in the frozen ground all winter and are have just received the message of warmth and light that signals them to re-emerge.
All of us too are waiting. We too may be feeling a little green and a little wired from so much time in our houses and apartments. We’ve been sheltering in place now for over a month. We’re told that the virus infection rate is plateauing here in Massachusetts, but yesterday we learned that public schools will not reopen again before next fall. It’s too early to come out of our protective bubbles. But when will it be safe again? Can we continue our subterranean lives long enough for the danger to pass and the proverbial spring to appear?
Perhaps tuning into the multitude of cycles of rising and falling around and within us will give us confidence that, in time, this too shall pass.
On Being Disturbed
- At April 21, 2020
- By drynick
- In Reflections
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I woke at 3:30 this morning mulling over what Coronovirus might mean for the Boundless Way Temple going forward. Residential retreats have been at the heart of our Zen practice community since we bought this building ten years ago. We certainly won’t be having any of them in the next few months, and a conversation with a retreat organizer overseas yesterday brought home to me the reality that we may not have any residential retreats through the end of the year…and perhaps beyond.
We won’t be going back to normal—it’s gradually sinking in now. While we are beginning to see signs of the infection rate slowing, this ongoing experience of fear of viral infection will change our social and physical interactions forever. Restaurants will, of course, reopen at some point. But the small places that used to feel cozy and charming may now feel too dangerous to venture in. Will we eat out with Plexiglas dividers between us? Or with tables carefully arranged six to twelve feet apart? We don’t know what the new world will look like, but we won’t be going back to the way it was.
One model for thinking about how organizations (and organisms) change is called ‘punctuated equilibrium.’ Rather than understanding growth as a neat upward moving line, this theory says times of relative stability are interrupted by periods of significant structural change. This makes sense to me as I look back at my life history and at the experience of organizations I have been associated with. Things move along fairly predictably, until something happens that causes disruption to the comfortable and formerly functional patterns of behavior, then we have to find new ways of being—new assumptions and new ways of doing things.
These places of disruption are hard for human beings to bear. Almost all of us like predictability and stability. We like to know what will be happening tomorrow and next week and next year. We get anxious when we lose faith in our capacity to know what is coming. Our minds get us into all kinds of trouble as we imagine scenarios that cause us to lose sleep and live in a state of worry and fear.
Looking back, we can see that each one of us has weathered all of those places of danger and significant change. The many times when we could not see our way forward, when our carefully made plans were abruptly derailed by factors beyond our control. They all turned out OK. We might not have gotten what we wanted, but we are all still here and life is still fully going on.
Significant and unexpected change disorganizes us and leads us to places we had never considered going. We leave our old world behind (sometimes moaning and complaining) to enter into a new world with new possibilities and new challenges. These many worlds of our lives come and go like a dream. Once I lived in a dorm and went to college. Once I was the father of a young daughter. Once I went out to dinner at restaurants as a treat when I didn’t feel like cooking at home.
What seems solid one moment, soon is just a memory. Even the troubles that wake us up in the middle of the night and won’t let us sleep fade into a hazy memory. What is so urgent at one moment, I can hardly remember a few days or weeks or years later.
This brings me back to the issue a faith that my friend brought up a few days ago. Where does it come from and what if it doesn’t have to do with a old man with a beard sitting on a cloud in the sky?
What if I had faith that everything would somehow be OK? ‘OK’ clearly doesn’t mean that I get things to be the way I think they should be, but perhaps that’s not the point of life. Perhaps there is a deeper ‘OK’ that I can learn, little by little, to trust?
I’m reminded of a native American song I came across when I was twenty and in the middle of a period of great turmoil and transition in my life:
Why do I go about pitying myself,
when all the time
I am being carried
on great winds across the sky?
Follow David!